i really hate this word :"( made mi cry so many times... so many things i cant do, so many things i hav to wait.. so many things i have to stay faraway and envy of others enjoying...

jus had this conver with my cousin from holland.. i told him that i was rotting at home for this holidays then he commented that im wasting my mum's money. i got kinda pissed and told him off. then he shot bck that he always see mi waste my mum's money.

="( im paying for my own braces, violin lessons, sch fees and expenses. from my tuition money, occasional jobs and whatever grants i can get my hands on. ="( haizzzz... though i noe may not be enuf.. eventually hav to borrow like ard 500 from my mum.. still.. i wish to live on my own for now....

i really hate this. almost everyday, i hear my own brother shouting at my mum. 你有钱吗？没钱不要吵！
im sorry ="( im not able to take this shit anymore. im gonna live at hostel for one full year and dun go back.