i wanted to put my title as"not even a second look, literally", but its technically wrong. he did giv mi a second glance, when he was talking to his friend. my heart flutters ever so much when im in such close proximity of him. i don't know how i can ever forget this insane infatuation of mine. its the first time i saw him in sch other than at club events, and its really a pleasant surprise. i kinda regret nv adding his class but at the same time im also thankful im not the same class as him cos i most probably won't be able to focus on Anil all the more.

oh well, i guess i can only see him from afar, admire his photos and be a full-time stalker. he's totally not interested in me, and not talking to me. haiz. its a mixture of feelings; happy cos he's in sight but sad cos he ignores me. argh, it's a very uncomfortable feeling.

and he ended my day when he opened the door for another girl. really, my day ended at that instant. i was lifeless from then on. sighs. jealousy is terrible, it makes me very depressed.